She groaned because of the lights in the room that was hurting her head even more than Li Yuan. She buried her face deep in the pillow. She would look into it later.
Her headache wasn't letting her sleep but she wasn't wide awake too. A mental image of yesterday events reeled in her head like a film and she shot up on the bed.
She winced at once as the pain erupted by the sharp movement but then froze. Yesterday, she remembered meeting Su Qianwei, the snake. Then she went to a deserted place and drank...
After that everything was pretty much blurry. She panicked at once.
She always babbled in her drunken state, it was a habbit she picked from her despair. All the emotions and secrets she bottled, burst out like a fountain out of her mouth when she was drunk.
And sometimes even her alternate personality emerged too. She would act stupid like a savage ostrich and crave affectionm like a needy leech.
Other times she was a sleepy drunkard and that mostly happened when she was drained, emotionally and physically.
n.o.body could tell what kind of drunk she was going to be until the next morning.
Did she tell him about her real ident.i.ty? Or worse did he get to know about the escape plan? Did he see her injuries and got suspicious?
Lei Xinyi eyes widened in horror, her eyes moving frantically but then her situation settled in. She was wearing the same clothes she was wearing yesterday! And if she did babble anything like that she wouldn't be on his bed!
Maybe it was just because she was drunk and he had to rescue her from an unknown place.
Li Yuan took that moment to come out of the dressing room. Dressed. He ignord her presence, like she wasn't even there and stood in front of the vanity table.
Her head was kiling her hand in hand with sucktion in the atmosphere. Syncing allies.
Her mouth was dry and it had nothing to do with dehydration. She licked her lips and softly called, "Li Yuan."
It was her way of testing the waters.
His eyes ablazed and lips pursed, his hand stilled once combing his hair but he didn't turn to her but walked to the door with steady steps.
Lei Xinyi panicked and ran to him and held his arm but he jerked his arm out of her hold, like she was infected with a plaque.
A pang emerged in her heart which was replaced with rage in a matter of seconds. He was still galring at her, like she had betrayed him.
Lei Xinyi return a twin glare and shouted, "I was depressed and lonely, Okay! I am locked here the whole day with no one to talk to! The whole wedding and fake pregnancy were freaking me out so..."
"So you drove to a noman land after deceiving my radar and drowned in booze out of your skull?!" Li Yuan cut her off in a lethally calm voice.
"Yes! I mean NO! You are just putting it too harshly! You have me practically locked in here, like in a curfew! I feel suffocated! I am not a six-year-old! Even a six year old isn't prisoned in the place people call his house. I am being molded by the people around me!"
"It isn't the first time this is happening, so just tone it down!"
Deafening silence descended upon them. Lei Xinyi felt like she was slapped by him.
He just justified what the world had done to her as fair. He just unknowingly called her life her destiny.
By this, her being sold by her mother was fair, then being experimented on was fair, having to slaughter and rip people at the age of ten was fair, being r*ped was fair just because she couldn't fight the flow of river even when she was just a drop, a contaminated drop in murky water!
He didn't say it but he meant it. HIs subconscious ideology was based on it. To him despair, hunger, agony were destined, not forced on!
She took two steps backward. Her eyes reflected the hustling he had ruined in her, the hurricane he had altered in her. The spark, the struggle he had killed in her.
She swallowed her willowing turmoil and a bitter smile bloomed on her face and her eyes turned rock-hard like her heart, "Right! It has happened to me once so it makes it right whenever it happens... Because I couldn't fight it once, it's illegal for me to object on it now."
"Xinyi..." Li Yaun took a step forward to touch her but Lei Xinyi held her hand to stop her from reaching her. The detached look in her eyes stopped him in his tracks.
"Save it! I am tired. In fact, I am tired of this life! I just want to get away! I need s.p.a.ce thi..this is suffocating me. You controlling my life. Everyone has a say in my life, EVERYONE, except me! Now I know why would Lu Xinyi really escape! Just...Just leave me alone!"
He didn't get what she was talking about escape but he understood the bitterness in her every syllable.
He wanted to reach her and take her woes away but she was molten gla.s.s now if he touch her now his blazing iron touch would shape her against her will and their would be nothing more infurating than this for her.
In the fit of rage they were better away from each other. Lava and fuel don't have compatiblity, when they are together they only make good explosions.
She took several steps away then ran in to the bathroom and shut the door behind her. With the locking noice that followed.
There was a conected door in the walk-in closet but she was better left alone right now.
Heck, he was better left alone right now. He ran a agitated hand through his hair and walked out of the room.
Here he though he would be the one who was going to be angry but apparently the girl had a way to turn the tables.
She neeed s.p.a.ce and he needed a cigrette, utgently.
Their life threads were messed in cl.u.s.ters, whenever they were together, they would suffocate, trip and break them.
