Chapter 2 Episode 3
(The Despair of Those Who Are Being Summoned 3)
Day 64 after being summoned to another world
The morning sunlight come through the window.
Laura and her sister looking at each other and decided to knock the door of Ryouma's room.
*Ton Ton*
What they are holding in their hand is a tray filled with breakfast that they had ordered from the innkeeper.
Since last night until now, Ryouma have never left his room.
Ignoring an invitation to have a dinner and the snack, they deliver at midnight, only the sounds of a page being turned over can be heard inside the room.
Fatigue can also be seen on the sisters face.
They have been worried about Ryouma who is currently checking the book as if something was possessing him.
*Ton Ton*
They knocked on the door slightly harder this time.
It was not the sisters' intention to disturb what Ryouma has been doing; however, they could not leave Ryouma who have not yet eat since last night dinner, and he even hasn't taken some water to drink.
"Ryouma-sama...?"
She called him fearfully.
As expected, there's no answer from him, only the sounds of turning page can be heard faintly.
Finally, the sounds stopped.
"Sara..."
"Indeed... I guess there's no other choice, ane-sama."
After they gaze at each other, they placed the tray that they had on the floor and turned their body toward the wooden door.
*BANG!*
Their body strengthened by martial art blew off the door.
""Ryouma-sama""
The room is dark.
Despite the fact that sunlight can be seen entering the room through the window, the room remained dark and cold.
That was caused by the man who was sitting inside of the room.
"Ryouma-sama...?"
Cautiously, Sara tried to call him.
Ryouma did not turn his eyes toward the sister who had kicked the door open and just stared at the desk in silent.
Maybe due to him opened the page of the book over and over again, the tip of the page end up looking worn out, and some part of the pages are wet due to sweat dripping on it.
Numerous paper was scattered on the desk and the floor, on the papers is written names with a horizontal line.
(This is... Did he wrote all the name of the G.o.ds he knew and checked whether it was listed in the book or not...)
Even with only a brief look, Sara can see more than a dozen of papers scattered.
"Ane-sama..."
Laura handed over two pieces of paper toward Sara.
The papers are tightly filled with names with horizontal lines crosses over it.
And when she look closely, the name written on it are identically the same.
The line that crosses over it also the same.
"This is..."
Toward Sara's murmur, Laura nodded her head.
Ryouma wrote all the name of the G.o.ds as far as he could remember and checked whether it was written in the book or not, and put a horizontal line if the name exist in the book.,
And then, when everything written on it has a
horizontal line, he once again repeats it, in case there's a mistake, or he missed one of the names.
Looking for hope that does not exist... He repeated his works again and again.
"... None..."
A small voice comes out from Ryouma's mouth.
"Ryouma-sama?"
"I... Can't return home..."
This time, his voice can be heard clearly by the sisters.
"I can't return... I can't return... I can't return..."
The words that come out from Ryouma's mouth gradually grows stronger.
With the room being dark, it turns the atmosphere into deep gloom.
"Ane-sama!"
"Yes!"
The moment the sisters entered the room, they feel something uncomfortable.
In the sisters' eyes, the image of Ryouma is someone powerful, calm, ruthless, and a little bit kind.
However, the Ryouma in front of them now is fragile and unstable.
And yet, it was frighteningly ominous for him to have such image.
The two sisters immediately embrace Ryouma's head between their chest.
Just like how one's comfort a baby.
Letting the baby wet with tears and be relieved.
"It's alright. Ryouma-sama. We're both here. Always by your side..."
Wonder how much time have pa.s.sed.
The dark and heavy air that drifted inside the room has gone.
A calm breathing of a sleeping person leaks out from between the sister's chest.
"Ane-sama. Should we carry him to bed?"
Laura turned her eyes toward Ryouma and said such words.
"I guess so... Laura, try to carry that side."
Having a huge body exceeding 100 kg, the two sisters somehow managed to lay Ryouma on the bed.
"From now on, what are we going to do?"
Laura line of sight turned toward the broken door.
"I think he won't be able to wake up until evening due to the fatigue from the all-nighter. We should talk to the innkeeper about the door and pay extra money..."
Then Laura began talking in a hesitant manner.
"Ryouma-sama is scary isn't he..."
"Indeed, however, that does not matter... Ryouma-sama has saved us. That's why we're Ryouma-sama belonging. We should just devote ourselves to Ryouma-sama."
"Un, I agree. Ane-sama."
After the sisters had exchanged such conversation, they turned their gaze toward their master who has been sleeping on the bed.
(Where is this?)
Ryouma's consciousness was inside a darkness.
Cold darkness, which feels like it can freeze one heart.
(I... That's right!. I was inside my room examining the book.)
Little by little Ryouma's consciousness becomes clear.
"This place is within your mind."
A cold robotic voice without emotion can be heard.
(My mind? Am I inside my consciousness? "
"That's right."
(I did not say anything yet?)
"This is inside your own mind after all. Something like spoken words is insignificant."
(But you're talking you know?)
"No, that is you only think so yourself."
(What are you?)
"Me? Me huh? I'm someone closest to you, an existence that understands you the most."
(What is that?)
"For now, you are good knowing just this much... One day, you will reach the answer yourself."
After the voice said such word, its asked Ryouma a question.
"What is your wish?"
Ryouma thought for a moment about his strongest wish.
(I... I want to return home. I want to see, Asuka, Grandfather, and my cla.s.smates... I want to go back to my original world.)
"But that will not come true. Did you not confirm it yourself?"
The heartless voice smashed Ryouma's wish.
(I can't come back? Can't I go back to that life once again?)
"You can't. Although the possibility itself is not 0. However, are you prepared to pay a great sacrifice? There's no other method other than clinging to your own luck. You should have understood this... Later, will you have the resolution to lose a great sacrifice? Or end up giving up?"
(Hah? What are you talking about?)
Toward Ryouma's question, the voice continue talking,
"You should understand everything already... It's just that you don't want to admit the answer."
(I... I'm...)
"If you unleash your rage, you can even destroy this world. Forcibly being summoned to this world and to be made to fight. All of this, whose fault do you think?"
(That is... the old man and the people in that empire fault...)
"Wrong... This is also the problem of this world. This twisted world which filled with sacrifice made by the people from your world."
The voice denied Ryouma's answer.
(A twisted world?)
"That is correct, this world was established with the premise of taking away! Kill... Violate... Take back what was robbed from one's body. You have the right to do that!"
(I have such right?)
When Ryouma was about to nod his head toward the voice, another voice resounded within the darkness.
"It's alright Ryouma-sama. We're both here. Always by your side..."
It was a warm, soft and comforting voice.
When he heard that, Ryouma lost his consciousness and disappeared from the world of darkness.
"Fumu... You're leaving without freeing me huh?... Well, that's fine. Sooner or later, even if you don't want to, you will have to choose. Either to be accompanied by me or to be swallowed by me... No matter what you decide, it's yours to decide... After all, I'm you..."
In the darkness where Ryouma has gone, only the cold robotic voice can be heard.
